Don't Let Me Down

I have been in Europe for eight days and I am starting to feel semi-comfortable.  My mom left today to go back to the states and for a second I thought, "Autumn, what the hell did you get yourself into this time?" and then I thought, "OK. Mr. Lennon, just you and me now.  Don't let me down."  and then I stopped thinking.  Naturally, I still love everything about Liverpool, I just wish there were people here that I knew. Besides, you know, the Beatles. Where I am living now is right near Mendips and Penny Lane... you may be familiar.  I'm a bit more anxious?  than I thought I would be.  There are little things that are seeming so much bigger to me because I do not have any ounce of control over the little things that I am used to having control over... like having ranch dressing and an iPhone and my mom and brother five minutes away. You know the little things.  I am sure all of this will pass... so big deal if I dreamed that I had 5 sweet and sour sauces in front of me and woke up to realize I will not taste that for a long long time?  I am already starting to enjoy Liverpool's Dr. Pepper... even though it is not made of 23 flavors and the bottle def doesn't claim it is.  But it will do for now.  If anyone believes they are going to come visit me, please include Dr. Pepper, Sweet and Sour Sauce, and Ranch Dressing in your luggage.

I am already growing insanely fond of the Liverbird.  It's a mythical creature that is all over the city (and when I say all over I mean like we have street signs and oh  there aren't that many streets sign here btw).  The story of the bird goes something like this (have no fear I will muck it up) but there are two birds on the Liver building (aka as L.V.) one female and one male.  The female watches over Mersey River to make sure all the sailors come home safely and the male bird faces the city and makes sure that all the bars are open on time... but I bet it's really to make sure that the city is safe. I guess it's common to see the words "You'll Never Walk Alone"  along with the bird.  Either way, I love this bird already and ink might be required.






My dorm isn't bad.  I mean it's small compared to the size of my room at my old apartment but I bet there are endless opportunities here (that sounds dirty but it's not).  The kitchen isn't something beautiful but it's really what should be expected for a dorm.  Where do I think I am? the palace?

Yesterday, when everyone from the tour group was still here, Charles got us into the town hall which is a big deal because normally people aren't allowed to be where we were...  which is right here...


The balcony that was never meant for common people, like the Beatles, to be on. Prior to the four boys going on there it was only meant for royalty.   Well, we were on that balcony yesterday.  I think that is pretty cool.  There were many group pictures taken... I'll get one up as soon as one is available because I lost my camera charger somewhere between Scranton and Liverpool.  Who knows what I did with it.   But yeah the building was awesome and just freaking beautiful.  We were pretty flipping lucky that we got to go into the building!

Watch this ... 
seven minutes in heaven
At 2:35ish you can see them on the balcony.   The some facts in the video are wrong but it's pretty good!


I went to the Cavern Club last night and I tried to take in the reality of the situation.  I don't think I think about it often because I just gets complicated and bizarre (Cue mom singing "How Bizarre" in my head). But when I think about when I first met the Beatles I never imagined it would go this far!  I have to take a second and realize how far I have come in my life to get me where I am and just whisper a thank you to the universe for sending my family and friends and even strangers that have helped me along my way.  The reality of the situation took my breath away in the sweltering Cavern Club as my mom, Charles, and I were watching the last show of Beatle Week last night.  It's amazing how four boys from Liverpool really changed the world. Like them or not, you cannot deny that fact.  And if you try to I can produce evidence that separates the facts from your opinion.

I just got off of Skype with Liz and I am feeling way better than I did when I started this. I know it's going to be a totally scary couple of weeks but I already have one friend and two are on their way from the states shortly even though they are at different schools.  Today, someone who knows me pretty well said "Do you think you bit off more than you can chew?"  and I timidly squeaked, "I always do."   However, it dawned on me that, even though I do always bite off more than I can chew, I never choke.  That is the important part my friends.  Chew fast!  Chew thoroughly! Chew well!  Someone should make that a t-shirt.

I can't lie! When my mom and Charles left with the rest of the group (really they should've stayed some parents they are ;)  )  I was certain that I would be getting my bags from school and just following right behind them.  But I didn't!  I never thought that it would be easy to leave everything I ever knew (and my momma) I didn't expect it to be this hard but I think that technology will totally help that. Last year, I felt like belonged here.  And who runs away from acceptance?!

So tonight I shall leave you with these wise words:

"It's going to be hard tomorrow and it's going to be hard the next day.  So what?  It's better to have it hard than to not have it at all."  - Lennon.